Over PD

waktu belum married, berat badan gue 42 kg saja (dengan tinggi 163 cm), terlalu kurus sih dan kepengan banget bisa gemuk, tapi gak pernah bisa..

abis punya anak satu, berat badan tidak bergeming, malah cenderung turun, pernah sampai 39kg! banyak pikiran kali ya...

abis ngelahirin anak kedua, lumayan, berat badan jadi 46 kg.. ideal tuh... kadang melar sampai 48 kg.

tapi.. abis melahirkan anak ketiga berat badan menjadi 52-53 kg.. dan dengan bottom gue yang seperti ini, gue jadi keliatan gemuk, apalagi kalau pakai sepatu flat, udah deh, berat di bawah..

tapi, yang namanya perempuan, terkadang suka over PD and ngerasa "gk ah, gue gk segemuk itu"

suatu hari, gue mau beli celana jeans.. ini pekerjaan berat buat gue, soalnya emang susah cari jeans untuk bentuk bottom spt ini, akhirnya pilihan dijatuhkan ke GAP dgn alasan lagi sale ( perempuan banget, yak!).. gue pilih model yang straight, biar gk keliatan tambah melar.. si mas2 yang bantu milihin nawarin gue untuk langsung nyoba nomor 4... uuhh.. enak aja, gue khan gk sebesar itu.. lalu, dengan PDnya gue bilang, nomor 1 deh mas, kayaknya nomor 1 juga muat, si mas2 kontan ngeliat gue dgn tatapan "gk tau diri nih...", lumayan tnggap sih gue, langsung diralat.. sekalian sama nomor 2 deh, soalnya kadang nyangkut di pinggul

lalu, berjalanlah mantap gue ke kamar ganti.. boro2 muat, masuk ke pinggul aja gk bisa, nyangkut di paha, dua2nya lagi..

baliklah gue ke mas2 tadi.., "ya udah deh, nomor 4".. yang dibalas dgn tatapan "khan tadi udah dibilangin".. balik lagi ke kamar ganti, sambil bolak balik celana, "kayaknya kegedean deh, tau gitu bawa juga nomor 3".. dan yang terjadi, nomor 4, gak bisa ditutup retsletingnya!!

lalu, gue balik lagi ke mas2 tadi, dan berkata pelan "hmmm... ada nomor 5?", si mas balas dengan menahan tawa "nomor 6 aja.." .."ya sutralah.." dan benar .. nomor 6 sukses ditutup retsletingnya.. tapi, ini khan nomor 6.. duh, nomor 4 aja, keliatannya udah gede.. banget!

gue harus diet! tapi, susah kayaknya, soalnya kayaknya si bottom ini udah menolak untuk menjadi kurus...

do best to your life

every weekend, i always cook some new menu, and this morning i tried to get some new recipes from internet. when i browsed of bakpau recipe, the search engine directed me to dapurbunda blog.. i stopped for few minutes remembering inong, bunda of zidan&syifa, the writer of dapurbunda blog who past away a year ago because of asthma.. then suddenly i really would like to know more about her.. it was so sad, because i found one blog about inong's last days in hospital, i saw picture of her kids with sad faces who really need a warm hug from their mom.

Oh God, she was a loving mom.. i really cannot imagine how was the kids feel at that time, knowing that their loving mom would never provide them cookies, bread, jelly, and other delicious food..

i promptly remember to my dear friend who being left by his wife who insists to get study overseas. it is good to study more to get more knowledge (or other benefit?), but what i don't get is why she brings herself to left her special-need kids who definetely need special attention to get better.. i don't really trust the therapy that the kids have been through, i think the kids really need attention and caring directly from their mom's heart as the best therapy ever; just like the story of Lorenzo's Oil film... my friend's wife is a doctor, but why she did not try to learn more about solving her kids problem, (instead leaving them to study abord of other medical practice) so they can live normal as the other kids in their age...?????.. ahhh.. i cannot judge her..

so.. i pray to God, wish He gives me opportunities of long live to spread my love to my kids, my family, my dearest friend and always there for them .. also i would like to gift with ability to provide the best for my kids. Amin.